BAT Cave

Yesterday I did the horses and went up to the house to help Beth, then we went to the park and I played with Molly for 30 minutes while Beth were exercising. Then we went to the fun bus, I kept an eye on little miss Darcie that was asleep until she got hungry.. during that time I met Becky again, a girl from England, but she had to run after the kid she was looking after so we didn't have much time to speak. But then I met this other Au-pair from Germany! Miriam, she was really nice even though it was quite difficult to talk since her English were limited. But she took my number and she will text me the next time the girls are going to get together, so that is nice :) After that I played a bit with Molly at the fun bus, then I drove home with her just to discover that Beth had left the gate closed! So I had to drive through Vanessa's gate and go through paddock to get to the house, and then I played with Molly for one and a half hour of something :)

In the afternoon I helped out a bit with the horses, the house and the kids, but we had some people over so there was not much for me to do a while there :) At 6.15 PM I went to C3Y (C3 Youth) at the BAT (Born again Team) Cave, this name we gave the room last week so it was the first time we used it :P We went to McDonalds, which apparently they do all the time. I don't know how long it is gonna last for me though, two weeks in a row now and feeling really unhealthy so I am probably gonna take a long ride on the bike later today! :P
But before we went to McDonalds we looked at a DVD, and the preacher talked about forgiveness. That some things you have to forgive to be able to move on, but then my question is: What do you do if you know that you have to forgive, but you just can't? When it is something that stops you from forgiving, when you just can't allow yourself to forgive? WHAT DO YOU DO?????